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Yes, so I did grow up in a little town called Gympie. So the garage on the side of the house was this open garage, there's no door on it. And every morning before school you would find me in this garage. So I would be there every morning before school doing my plies, there was no door on this garage.
0:38 to 1:18
And that love of dancing led me to actually become a professional dancer. I got into dance school at Sydney and then danced around the world doing the can-can at casinos and chorus lines on cruise ships. Then I arrived at this time in my life, 17 years ago, where I could no longer get myself to do the thing that always made me feel so good. I would go out there to play groups with this big smile on my face and pretending everything was okay and I'd look around me and everyone else was coping.
1:18 to 1:50
Everyone else seemed to be loving motherhood. I said to her, well, you were in this mindset that's really, really common. I don't have the energy to do it, I don't have the equipment, what do I do? Nothing. It's the mindset of all or nothing. Then we think, oh I can't do it today, I'll do it tomorrow or the next day, there's no point.
1:50 to 2:24
What I hope you all discover today is that we want to turn this all or nothing into all or something. So it had been a few months since I had done that first plie. My toddler Stella said to me, do you want to have a dance mom? And I had been saying to her for months, oh, you know, I just can't do it, I'm making some excuse, I need to make the dinner or whatever, I just couldn't bring myself to do it or I was faking my way through it.
2:24 to 2:57
And this time I said, yeah, let's dance. And I will never forget, I picked up Stella on one side and I had my baby Ruby on the other and we started dancing together. I turned to look at Stella and I turned to look at little Ruby and I saw within the eyes, it was like it was the first time I had really seen them for what felt like so long.